Tuesday, 22 December 2009
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We definitely do get what we wish for. For the last month i have been whining that i have yet to take a single medical leave for the entire year and just in 3 short days i have been suspected of appendicitis. So after severe probing with needles and ultrasound machines ( like in the movies!), I came out of it, appendicitis free but with a warning letter to consume less alcohol. I do think that the severity of that warning is double fold taking into account the festivities of the end year :( During my blood test in the emergency room, which is FILLED with those ages 5 and below, there was a little boy around the age of 3 taking a similar blood test. While he went through the blood test without a shed of tear, i sat there blinking back flowing tears. Kids are made of steel these days.
On another note, just a few more days before a new turn of year ! I love the new year's, it depicts a second chance for a new turned leaf :)
Saturday, 19 December 2009
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in the last 72 hours i:
had yummy risotto and the yummiest chocolate tart in telawi street bistro
saw the demise of 9 months
wore possibly the most decent outfit to phuture
found happiness in a single malt
stayed till the lights came on and the music went off
ordered a nasi lemak dengan ikan paus at a mamak
slept for 2 hours, packed in 5 minutes and found myself at the back of a lorry in the rain
paddled through white waters for 3 hours
had a RM90 walk through a cave
ate one too many meals at one too many destinations and
shared a bed with 3 other girls
9.30pm and i need to sleep
goodnight world
Thursday, 17 December 2009
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right now, i feel i don't belong to any part of my life
Thursday, 26 November 2009
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The only wish that comes true are the wishes we make when we blow out our birthday candles. At the rate my life is going, I need to make my birthday a weekly celebration. This year I wished for something rationale, something which I knew I might be able to obtain on my own through hard work, but I just needed that extra bit of magic dust. However, there are some things that neither hard work nor time can ever change. I wish I wasn't so mad at you, I wish I could let it slide, I wish the past 2 years did not happen. Although you are far away and we have gone days, weeks, months without talking to each other, I've always held this comforting knowledge that you are there for me. So now even with the minute ticking seconds, it pains me to know that the intangible bond is gone. I wish I never made those memories with you, those imperishable moments. Because love fades and memories supposedly do as well, but I guess at a much slower and more painful pace. I wish I understood myself that bit more. I wish I didn't spend every waking moment in front of the notebook, in front of the textbook or in front of facebook. I wish to go back to a time when I wasn't wishing and the world could easily be put right with just a cup of milo.
Saturday, 24 October 2009
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Right now I am playing this game. Although it is a game for one, in some extremely selfish way, i need your full participation and attention. However, only when i require it. Also do note that you may be a key chess piece in this game, but there are several other games, where you are just a pawn. And several others where you are off the chess board. Up and down the snakes and ladders, is it any surprise why you are screaming for an end?
Right now I am looking at this picture of a girl. She was my senior and also the most popular girl in school. When I was 13, I would have given anything to be in her shoes. Now she puts her v shaped fingers on her lips and presses her tongue through it. And just as she was when she was 17 all her friends followed her. Not as she is when she is 27, I don't want to be 27 with a daily hangover, an unemployed CV, low slung jeans and a belly button ring.
Right now I am listening to this song. It is a song to blares through the pretentious chatter, the stabbing of backs and the uncongenial gossips. A happy clappy song that gets your right shoulder twitching, and then your left shoulder begins its own rhythm. Soon you find your fingers snapping despite the fact that you can't snap. Before you know it, you have vacated your seat and doing the world's most embarassing dance. Yet, your heart is light and your smile is bright.
Right now I am at this place. This latitude where letters do not arrive and is not defined by a postcode or historic landmark. I have become a passing town for people in search of something greater. For each wanderer that comes through, he/she is fed with laughter, showered with love and rests in my heart. With each stolen souvenir, I find myself emptier and smaller in this ever growing sense of loneliness.
Right now I am reading the book of life and the answers are not written at the back.
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- Name: Smalls Wong
- Gender: Female
- Member Since: 11/9/2004
