if only you took the time, the time to unravel in everything that i was. if only i was someone you actually loved. if only you understood the kisses to the extent of how i have deciphered them. if only i didn't expect anything more. if only you could see this, then i wouldn't have to tell it to your face, that, you're the only person who knows me better than i know myself. if only i could do something about that. if only you and you and you and you were one person. if only i could be loved by that one person.
the boy says "remember a year ago, you sent me this text, telling me that there are two things in this world that you love the most. do you remember what they were? "
big bonuses and annual leaves i think, but i don't say it aloud " milo ? " i reply meekly
he looks disappointed
" no. nightly calls to tuck you to bed and morning smses to greet your day " he beams
i'm disappointed, at how jaded i've become